[[2026-01-08]] I wanted to let you have that day (01/08/26) to yourself, unbothered, uninterrupted, and so i wrote the ideas i had when i had them so i could tell you and forgot to share them in that moment because the excitement of seeing you overpowered the need to share any of it. The excitement of seeing you is almost always more potent than a passing thought I have. It all gets brought up somehow, but with ADHD the structure i can provide my work schedule feels right. With You, all that structure feels pointless and containing and it doesn't feel like it helps anything. The first 5 seconds of seeing you again is sunset in summer where a hoodie is just warm enough, and the breeze blankets instead of pushes, calm like enjoying ice cream on a front porch while people drive by with their windows down, kids laughing a block over and someone else is It, all project work done, dishes cleaned and put away, and just finished reading the book I was on, knowing which I want to read next. #poems #poetry #adhd #writing #journaling #ourus