I didn’t know my seasonal depression was just seasonally reception to the people I surrounded myself with And I always had a feeling that a part of me was reeling from the blows when I imagined I was hit by something bigger than it is It actually isn’t that bad I’ve gone through summer at your side and while I’d say it’s been wild ride, it’s been calm and I’ve been happy and the fall always gets me sappy so I’m warning you if you thought I was quite the summer lover, this fall and winter won’t be bummers because I only know how to be this way I don’t remember the last time that everything felt fine I convinced myself that quiet cannot possibly be alright But now I’ve got to face that version of me that thinks conflict is somehow lovely because I can’t bring myself to pick a fight with you over something that you didn’t do I cant help but being gladly in love with you I remember last fall I was trying to