## thoughts on the past, brainstorm to tell Jess I haven’t mentioned it much because my course through development always feels so weird. I think of it like a web (definitely not because I’ve been a spider-fan since I was 4 and loved how Madame Webb showed him all his possible selves in one….). But when I hit these… revelations? It’s like a backtrack through all the things that revelation affects and makes it difficult to explain to people how important it is. Learning about my Intellectualizing last month helped me process my parentification, my childhood anger with video games, I could go on. But it all came from “sit with it”. And those three words keep wrenching venom out of the web of my life like fire and sonic blasts. And you showing up is like… the warmest light. A flame that doesn’t burn. But it shines a light on things for me in a way that I look at the web and I can see them all clearer. For the moments I’ve felt “that doesn’t serve me anymore”, “this isn’t who I ever was”, “it’s okay little me, I’ve got it”, there’s been a few in just our short days time where it feels like I look at some part of me and it’s like… I don’t have to pull the venom out? It’s like the Symbiote knows it can’t feed. Like breaking up with “I Don’t Dance”; it was the weirdest sensation. I cried so hard but felt so much Joy in a song that always embodied hurt. Like a final grieving of something that wouldn’t let me go. Released, and aware I was this already, the scab was just waiting to be removed. ## Public Goods Affiliate link https://app.impact.com/campaign-promo-signup/Public-Goods.brand?execution=e1s1 Need to get this setup once we've got GH.com running and functional again ## Pacifica Shampoo and Beauty https://www.pacificabeauty.com/collections/shampoo?srsltid=AfmBOoom6jBVXLofAM7TRfLB4IOqYLuQre8qIYcZHwd6EazaUgJhqIvd